I am a blogger failure

I know

I know, I haven't even posted. Sorry. But seriously it's not like I have people reading my blog :P. Well I am finally graduated. Yepp, it kind of a weird feeling. I have been waiting for this moment for so long and its finally here. It kind of put me into shock. I have so many things I want to do and there are so many things I want to be.

I just don't know which way I should go and it really has been frustrating :\

Today in church I was up playing my bass at worship and it was the last song, and it was the old song "Jesus, All for Jesus" and I stopped playing and I started singing to the song. That is something I never do I always focus on playing my bass, but I just stopped and started singing.

I have so many ambitions, plans, hopes and dreams and I have put them all into Gods hands. That has been the most hardest thing for me to ever do. I have put everything into hands, from wanting to work at pixar to a relationship with the most special girl. It has been the most hardest thing I have ever done, I mean I don't know if I will ever get these things back... it kills me.

Anyway, I was in church and I had to turn my back to everyone, this song just made me start crying. I have given up everything, for Jesus. I have surrendered everything to him. The things I would never ever have given up, I have for Him. This song brought me hope, because I don't know if I ever will get the people, dreams and hopes that I love back. I don't know if I ever will. But I do know, that God knows that I have laid everything I love so dearly, into his hands. I have hope that one day, somehow I will get the people, hopes and dreams back.

I don't know, Im just thinking and talking and posting to the world. Sheesh, I'm probably creeping people out. Well this is who I am now, I have been on the wrong side of the fence for so long. I have so many regrets. I just want more of Jesus. I will do anything for Him, even though it hurts me.

Sorry about all of that.

Ethan

Jesus, all for Jesus, All I am and have and ever hope to be. Jesus, all for Jesus, All I am and have and ever hope to be. 

All of my ambitions, hopes and plans I surrender these into Your hands. All of my ambitions, hopes and plans I surrender these into Your hands.

For it's only in Your will that I am free, For it's only in Your will that I am free, Jesus, all for Jesus, All I am and have and ever hope to be.

Haven't Posted in a while

Sorry I haven't posted in a while... Busy busy busy! Okay where do I start, well I just joined a baseball team, Yep! But the team is not good at all, it has only a few good players. They also play very bush league-ish.. Which means they do things that you would do in little league. It is hard for me because I am so use to playing the game right and they just do the opposite of how it suppose to be done... Yeah but its good training for my season in Japan. Im not going to brag but I am one of the good hitters. DUDE I AM JACKING THE BALL OVER THE FENCE!! Its about a 350 field :D

Okay graduation has been a lot for me too. Yeah its different, I am graduating with hard core homeschoolers, that are duggar-ed to their inner most beings . If you don't know what I mean, just google the Duggar Family. Yeah they all Duggar-It-Up!! Except for one person... I met this chick who was totally "Straight". Haha she was not Duggar-fied what so ever. She looked and sounded like Emma Roberts, she was pretty chill, we hung together and survived the Duggar-invasion :P

Yeah I have also been working on my 3D work. What do you think, Its not realistic yet. But its a start, right? I have to keep working on the smoke and fire and the materials on the ship. Then I have to add some killer color correction to put it all together. Any Ideas?

Here is Spence, I added 3D letters to this priceless picture of him. Dude he's a lil mini hunk!!! Look at this face!

Well thats all I have for now. Remember to turn off your lights and save a polar bear... Its some how saves them. DON'Y MOCK ME!!

Ethan

BOOYA

Me and Coops were bored one day so we did Olivia's hair like Brian Head Welch's hair... here is what we got!! :P Ohhhh Yeah. Doing her hair like that took us an hour and half!! WE WERE SERIOUSLY BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't have a lot to post, Im tired and have to finish my school... and graduation crap. Ughh. Won't these days just stop!!!!!!!

LATER

Times just flies by

Wow time flies. It feels like just yesterday I showed up at JOY Christian school, to play on their Jr high football team. There I met my greatest and most closest friend Rj Lago. We played sports all through high school, except for our Senior year. The greatest 6 years of my life were when I spent them with Rj.

I remember our sophomore year, I made these cut off jeans for both of us. Haha we called them man pants, because they looked like capris! We drew all over them with permo markers and we threw bleach on them. Ah, such good times!! We would wear those pants everywhere. haha they were so friggin hideous and people would always get mad at us for wearing them, but we didn't care.

I remember for Rj's 15th birthday we all went over to his house and we partied like it was 1999. Me and Rj played Army of Two and ate tons and tons and tons of sour patch kids. We both had a sugar overload... The next morning we both had the worst sour patch kid hangovers, OF ALL TIME!!! Haha wow we had such good times together.

Here is Rj all grown up, He is now married to his beautiful wife Ulga and they have a beautiful daughter Swahilga Elane. 

Here is his wife Ulga 

and here is their beautiful daughter Swahilga Elane 

Shes got Rjs eyes and Ulgas face. 

Yes... okay well I was wanting to keep this quiet but Rj's wife... Ulga.. As you can see she is a botox nut and... well she started giving Swahilga botox injections behind rj's back and well yeah her face froze. It was a sad tragic event that happened in Rjs married life, but he decided to keep going with his  wife and work through things. Rj I am very proud of you, for sticking it out with that Russian Botox Monster.

Yeah me and rj for years have been always fighting over who is more of a hunk. ever since jr high its just been a battle... So I am wondering what you guys think. Who is the Hunk out of us? Keep in mind I surf and Rj mini golfs and hangs out at parks with little kids. Okay I am just kidding about you hanging out at parks with little kids Rj!! I love you man!!

A: RJ (In the greatest tie die shirt) 

B: ME (SURFER;))

Haha RJ I love you bro, Happy Graduation, We both have made it. But ha, we are graduating 2012, hope the world is still around so we can enjoy our lives ;) 

Okay hey what do you think of this... its my test song. Its horrible quality. Sorry had to crush it down to fit it on my post. 

Yeah tell me whatcha think. 

Funny story, when I was in jr high my favorite band of all time was Steller Kart, I was like the biggest fan, until I saw them in concert. It was the worst concert ever, it was so upsetting. After I got back from their concert that night I broke all of their albums and never listen to them again. 

Years later when I had my band in Arizona, we needed vdrums for our drummer for recording.. and haha well we got some and I went over so we could jam and work on music. My buddies then brought up Steller Kart and I just unleashed everything I had in me.. I cut them down in every possible way. Thennnn my buddies were like "DUUUUDDDDDEEEEE.... You can't cut them down or talk bad about them... Jordan let us use his Vdrums!" So yeah the band I hated, was helping us out and let us use their drums :P So I never again said a bad thing about them. 

Sorry Just a moment I had in my life

CHEERS

Good Morning everyone who is still sleeping. Yes I am up at 4 in the morning. Why? Well because I can't sleep I had a rough week and can't sleep. I just have a lot going on. I've been thinking of a lot of things too. I am graduating (FINALLY) very soon and.................................. Blank Bam BOOM SHU-BOO-GA-MA!!! Nothing I don't know what to do with my life. I know, there are so many people my age at this point.. but I just don't know what to do.

I mean there are so many things I want and that I want to do and pursue. I want to finally get my band going, I want to go work as a 3D animator for Pixar... and I also want to get married and go through the trials of life and then have children. Hmmm I just don't know. So many decisions... Its a lot of weight on my shoulders. I am also not a person that just coasts through life and goes plan-less... I am a person that has to have plan and as of right now, I don't have a plan. I have opportunities all around me and yeahhh.... Its hard. Well I just have to see what happens I guess.

Sorry wow I unloaded on you. Sorry. My mind looks like this... Yeah it is a big mess.

Okay well I will change the subject. So did any of you see Brian Head Welch's new music video for Chemicals? What you haven't? DUDE! Okay it has been voted the best music video of the year. Ha it is so good KoRn is crying! Good job Brian and Love and Death crew! It was so inspirational and moving. 

 

Okay what did you think? Dude the part where they had the drawings attacking them, was so amazing. Wow.

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Okay you need to try this out. What you are gonna need is:

1. Bag of Cracker Jacks (Yes NUTS included)

2. One Gallon of 2% milk (Not that white water skim milk) 

3. One Bowl (size doesn't matter, but just try and get one that can fit your head)

4. One Spoon (Preferably Silver with a wide head so that you can get a good portion into your pie hole)  

Okay first, you are going to wash your hands. Then after your hands don't smell like you ran them through your neighbors husbands back hair, you will open the Cracker Jacks and pour them into the bowl. Then you will uncap your 2% milk and pour it into your bowl, fill it to The Thin Red Line, place spoon in bowl and enjoy. If you don't feel a pleasant filling sensation in your stomachical area then repeat steps 1-5 until you achieve that filling feeling. 

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Do you know how many movies there are that have characters that are named Ethan? Well so far I have got 9. 

ETHAN HUNT - Mission Impossible

ETHAN EDWARDS - The Searchers 

ETHAN TREMBLAY - Due Date

oh and

Ethan Ebbers - The Holiday 

Ethan Glance - Space Cowboys 

Ethan Beardsley - Your, Mine and Ours 

Ethan - I am Legend

Ethan - The Brave One

Ethan Banks - Enchanted 

Oh yeah CHECK IT BABY CHECK IT

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I am gonna head to bed. Before I go to bed one of my all time favorite Ridley Scott movies is Black Hawk Down... that movie brings me to tears every time I watch it. The scene where the General goes into the surgery room and walks in right when a guy is bleeding all over the floor and he goes over grabs some rags and bends down and cleans it up... That just makes me cry like nothing else. I don't know why tho. 

Its an Incredible movie, that sits right next to Saving Private Ryan on my "Favorite War Films Shelf"  

Goodnight... I mean good morning. 

Ethan 

Here is an update on my Battle Bear. Yeah still not finished, I need to keep working on his materials and his face. But I did add an AK-47. Yes of course I added one... you don't think it will work? Well I'm pretty sure the PH.D at the end of my name means I know something. If your going to have a battle bear, obviously you are gonna need a weapon. So there.

Hope you like what I have so far. Have a good saturday.

CHEERS!